Window to my Brain

On Wednesday, we did a writing exercise where we wrote while blindfolded and pulled from the subconscious. The first thing that is apparent when blindfolded is the darkness, so that's what I wrote about. This is exactly what I wrote. Errors and incoherence and all of it. I'm not exactly sure where a lot of this came from, so I hope it amuses you.

Darkness is a funny thing It makes you see in a way that you otherwise take for granted. It makes you alone in a room of 60. Just you and the darkness together in silence. Darkness is silence of the eyes. Your eyes can lie to you. Only darkness is truth. You can hide in the darkness, but the truth will always find you. It's the watcher in the night that gaurds all the most secret and precious things. Thoughts, emotions, all of that is safe in the darkness and can't hide from the truth.You can't even lie in the dark because there is no one to lie to. Why lie to yourself. It's a pointless idea. You know the truth. Can't convince yourself that lies are truth People fear the darkness. I say befriend it. It can be a useful ally Alone you have no one. Just the darkness When everyone leaves

Weird, eh?

I love my schedule

I can stay up super late on Sundays and Tuesdays because I don't have to wake up until 11:30. It's beautimous. One hundred percent beautimousness. My classes have been going well. They're all interesting/engaging/challenging, so that's a plus. In particular, I'm excited about my syntax class. What can I say? I love Linguistics. Boy howdy!

I ordered a new printer today because my Lexmark makes me sad.

Going through another phase of wanting to chop off my hair. Boo-urns.

If you want to see a 'feel good' movie with an ending that's not completely predictable, see Last Holiday. If you want to see a real life movie, watch Closer. I love that movie. People give each other the shaft. They're selfish. They're petty. They're small-minded. That's the reality. Movies with smushy ending make me sick. I know it's fiction, but does it should be based in reality. Human nature isn't fuzzy kittens and laughing babies riding sparkly unicorns. Let's get with the program, okay?

Also see Brokeback Mountain. It's the first truly excellent movie I've seen in quite some time.

Give me a job.

It's like poetry

To come back from a long absence in posting, I bring you my first poem for my poetry class. I call it, "Love So Sweet." Enjoy:

I like how you feel in my mouth
I am moved by your shape
Your form speaks to me
Touching you gives me chills
When things start to heat up, I love how you sweat
I like how it feels to break your seal for the first time
I love it when my lips touch yours
If I could, I'd have six of you
You are lovely when you dress-up
You're Cherry, Lime, or Lemon
You're Blue or Vanilla
You're Crystal Clear
You're red, white and blue
Pepsi, I love you

Oh, and I bought a tricycle at Wal-Mart. It is seriously awesome. I rode it all around the house after I assembled it. Later on, I'm going to customize it. Or, 'pimp my ride,' if you will.

Phoenix

I took my sister up to Phoenix yesterday. I would like to say that it was a nice, quick trip, but I would be telling a big, big lie. It took us over an hour to get from Ruthrauff to Orange Grove on I-10. That's about 2 miles. In an hour and twenty. So that was special.

Since it took us so long to get up there, we grabbed some dinner at Burger King. Up on the board there was a message that read "Picture Menus Available Upon Request". Who exactly is that sign for?

So, I'm officially back at the house. I've been hauling/cleaning/organizing all morning. There's still crap all over my floor, but I've had enough for now.

12 packs were $3.68 at Wal-Mart. That made me sad.

I got the clap today!

My sisters got me Gonorrhea for Christmas. How cool is that? I'm going to show it off whenever I get the chance. (You really want to click that link. I mean, really really.)

We had chimichangas for dinner tonight which has to be the best homemade meal ever. Ever. The sisters are leaving later today and then tomorrow morning. I have mixed feelings about going back to the house. I went back to pay rent and pick/drop stuff up/off, but that's all. I do want to finish cleaning and organizing my room though. I left it in the middle.

I've started reading in my spare time more. It's something I should have started doing earlier, but I'm a slacker so yeah.

I ordered Firefly and it should be coming within the next couple days. Best. Gorram. Show. Ever. It makes me want to buy this shirt.

Still no job. JobLink has one new posting and it's for a job I'm not qualified for. Need... job... have no... money... I've already drained a couple hundred from my car buying money.

Quick little bit of Posting

There's not much to say, really. I went out today to get a book with the gift certificate I got for Christmas. It's this massive reference of mythology and art of ancient civilizations. What a nerdy book, eh? I'm trying to build up my base of hard reference material outside of the internet. Hoorah. I'm not sure if I mentioned the 12 pack of Pepsi the 'rents picked up for me for 99 cents. How awesome is that? Mmmmm.... Pepsi... Speaking of which, I'm going to get me one o' thems.

New Years

It's 2006 now. Yessiree, it is. Hooo-eee, I had this roarin' bit of a hootinanny last night. I must have gone through at least eight Pepsis. Man, it was wild. I watched The Chipmunk's Adventure in my room and munched on Cheeto's. May it never be said that I don't know how to have a good time. I set a little resolution for myself. I would reveal it, but I don't want to. It also defeats the purpose of the resolution if I tell people, so you'll just have wonder at what it is.
I'm still jobless, but hopefully money won't be an issue for a while. I'm not going to press the financial aid thing until after the check is deposited in my bank account. That's probably illegal, but I really don't care. I need to pay rent somehow, and I don't want to completely deplete my car fund. I will definitely need next year not know where I'll be living or who I'll be living with. It's about time I got a car anyway. It's crossed my mind to ask the 'rents for help once I get a job, like they did for Bethany. It's worth a try at any rate.
We have a family dinner thing tonight. Most of the people are already here actually. I've taken refuge for a bit in my room. I keep wondering what possessed me to paint it orange. I was very odd in high school. Odd in a different way than I am now, that is.
There's nothing much else to report by way of break stuff other than my anxiousness for school to start up again. I should be back at the house on the 4th or 5th depending on when Bethany's flight is.